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The Iceberg of Emotions:
Anger is an action, which is made up of many other emotions. When you understand the emotions that trigger anger, you can help yourself to control those smaller emotions, which in turn controls your anger. There is no miracle cure for anger control, only your self control and understanding of the situations.

The below image "iceberg" gives some very positive examples of what makes up anger.
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Wow...
The net provides a wealth of information and sites...keep digging! Wanted to suggest something: I think you could become a Life Skills Coach.
( I trained to become one, still aiming towards practicing what I am certified to do, I have an unrelated profession)...Years ago, was also on the receiving end of a Life Skills program, and it helped more than anything else. Did some digging of my own, here is a definition of Life Skills Coaching.

What is a Life Skills Coach ?
A Life Skills Coach is a trained para-professional who is able to facilitate groups, model and evaluate skills and support individualized learning. Coaches work from their hearts, demonstrating with their lives, their growth, and through their range of emotion and depth of experience, the effective use of the skills that they offer to their participants. Coaches put themselves on the line, human to human (Allen, Mehal, Palmateer, & Sluser, 1995; Conger, 1973, p. 3; Curtiss & Friedman, 1973; Curtiss & Warren, 1973).




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Various systems and styles of Life Skills coaching have evolved through the years as Life Skills has spread across Canada and expanded to serve a great variety of participants. Systems and styles of Life Skills coach training have evolved too, so that today there are many different methods of training coaches. Nonetheless, across Canada, almost all coach trainings find their theoretical base in the original Saskatchewan NewStart material.

'The Canadian Classification Dictionary of Occupations' {CCDO} description for A Life Skills Coach reads as follows:

2799-115 LIFE SKILLS COACH (educ.; social wel.)

Leads groups through life skills lessons and facilitates their practicing and learning of new behaviors necessary for coping with everyday life:
Surveys community needs and promotes the life skills program by distributing and tabulating questionnaires, conferring with social agency personnel and presenting demonstrations.
Develops protocol for program by establishing focus on self-improvement, family life, leisure, community or employment area, to meet expressed needs.
Interviews, screens and selects participants to fashion homogeneous group, by assessing case histories and reviewing problems with addiction, levels of personal disturbance and motivation.
Develops program themes and adapts lessons and skill training sequences according to participant needs and the objectives and orientation of referring agencies.
Arranges for a suitable training facility, if required.
Convenes group and introduces, demonstrates and leads skill training on topics pertinent to group needs, such as human relations and self-management skills, problem solving techniques and assertiveness, to assist participants in managing their own lives.
Identifies and acts on changing dynamics of group, by assessing verbal and non-verbal responses and checking regularly with participants, to facilitate their active participation in activities.
Arranges for and introduces guest speakers to inform groups on available options in education, employment, leisure time use and other relevant topics.
Counsels group members individually at request of participants.
Maintains participant attendance and progress records.
Evaluates program effectiveness by comparing individual and group progress to program objectives and individual goals.
Operates and maintains audio visual equipment to enhance the potential for learning.


SOME OCCUPATIONS THAT CAN BENEFIT FROM LIFE SKILLS COACH TRAINING

Addictions Counsellors
Administration Supervisors
Community Development Officers

Community Researchers
Community Service Workers
Corrections Workers

Developmental Service Workers
Education Counsellors
Employment Counsellors

Family Counsellors
Family Violence Workers
Group Home Workers

Home Support Workers
Health Care Providers
Life Skills Coaches

Mental Health Workers
Professors - University
Public Relations Promoters

Rehabilitation Therapists
Social Workers
Teaching Assistants

Teachers - Elementary
Teachers - Secondary
Teachers - College

Training Group Facilitators
Vocational Skills Instructors
Volunteer Coordinators

Welfare case Managers
Workshop Facilitators
Youth Workers/Counselling








Allen, S., Mehal, M., Palmateer, S., & Sluser, R. (1995). The new dynamics of life skills coaching. Toronto: YWCA of Metropolitan Toronto.

Conger, S. (1973). Life skill training - A social invention. In V. Mullen (Ed.), Readings in life skills (pp. 1 - 5). Prince Albert, SK: Department of Manpower and Immigration.

Curtiss, P., & Friedman, R. (1973). Training the life skills coach. In V. Mullen (Ed.), Readings in life skills (pp. 71-88). Prince Albert, SK: Department of Manpower and Immigration.

Curtiss, P., & Warren, P. (1973). The dynamics of life skills coaching. Prince Albert, SK: Department of Manpower and Immigration.

Tree- I agree with Lost.

Your experiences, strength and communications skills would make you a great Coach. Maybe focus on finding a certification training program & get your credentials.

Turning lemons into lemonade, as it where.. Be a great ending point for the documentary...!

wow...Lost... Agape....
never really knew what that was.
Had heard about it but was still too close
from having left RSE.
I will look more into the idea.

I think one of the most memorable times I had at the ranch was about 2 years ago.
AS a staff person, I was asked to be an archery leader(mind you-I had chosen to give up work hours, meaning less pay that week, but I saw it as an oppourtunity).

Well, I had a very very diverse group of people. 2 foreigners, 1 85 yr old lady,
Karreem (who had just come back to RSE), and a few others.
Michele Marie was coaching a group to my left.
Since I had played sports all my life and was team captain, and my dad had been my coach most of my life, I have some idea of team play.
So, we were doing archery for the second day in my group . The students should have been experienced enough to load the arrow, etc without help blindfolded.
But the elderly lady was really struggling.
I talked minimally in her ear, only to have Michele Marie tell me very arrogantly and sternly ," You can't do it that way!!!" And she trotted off in the
'I have been upper staff alot longer than you have been around' way.
I just muttered under my breath, "I will do it the way I want." I still had a bit of fear from that look, but I endeavored to ignore it.
The next day, the elderly lady gets back on the stand.
By now, it were highly suggested to not assist students.
But I could REALLY see, that this was not doing this woman any good for her self esteem or frustration level.
So, with the team already having shot their rounds, here comes Elizabeth.
Oh, she was nervous!!!
She gets the arrow loaded, pulls back the 15 lb bow I had sorted out for her from the children's archery equipment, and she let's it fly...only to have it land on her stantion.
I come up to her, hand her the arrow, say in her ear, "you are doing GREAT!"
She loads it again.
Plop!
I leave it alone. It is about 4" in front of her stantion.
She finally gets the last arrow loaded, pulls back with all her might....
It flies like 10 feet directly in front of her.
I let out a whoop and start cheering my team and Elizabeth on!
Every one is looking in our direction.
"What??!! Did someone hit a bull's eye?"
I say proudly, our group still applauding,
"She accomplished more than you will know!"
And we all escorted Elizabeth out to retrieve her covetted arrow!


Every time after that, Karreem has said."Hey Coach!" and holds his head high in uptmost respect.

For THAT experience, I am grateful.

There are shining moments to look back on too? Excellent...hold that thought.
Sad that in struggling to move away from a "school" like that, every aspect of the experience becomes tarnished. Take what is good, and let the rest go, when you are ready.
My thoughts on reading your post - that there is still much that is healthy in you;
that no matter where we find ourselves, there are always people like, Ellen Marie, was it? who's ego requires that other people do less well, but do it their way...;
That there are good and bad eggs in every group;
That ultimately, we are here to learn, so no life experience is a waste of time...not saying, it's okay if you were deceived, or that it should all be smiles and handshakes and bygones - just saying that, for what it's worth, there are some good experiences to be had even in the weirdest places, and if we can hold on to those and discard what does not serve us, we have gained.